'I Didn't Think It Would Happen To Me'
She hit me again last night. With each hit, whack, thump, kick and punch a shard of my self respect and dignity would fall and shatter on the floor.
I didn't think it would happen to me. Why should it happen to me, surely, I'm just like everyone else? If anything, it should be the other way around. I'm the man in the relationship, so why is my wife beating me?
She does it in front of our son, his impressionable mind soaking up each violent action inflicted upon me. I see him standing in the doorway of his bedroom, through my bleary eyes. Stood with the comforting warmth of the yellow artificial light radiating out to me, like a beacon of safety, tempting me in. Even my two year old son sees 'daddy' get beaten up by 'mummy'. He'll most probably think this is normal. He will, won't he? My face swollen, black eyes, broken bones, constant trips to the hospital and a pack of lies.
Lies. That was all I really said, nowadays. I would get asked "What happened?", I always come up with a lie, "I tripped.", "I walked into a door", "It was very icy outside this morning.". I made excuses constantly to my family, friends, colleagues and to my son. I also expected them to believe me. They usually would swallow the lies more than happy to accept that was the truth. They never suspected otherwise. Maybe some thought another man did it, it's unheard of a wife beats her husband. My broken ribs, bloodied nose, fractured cheek bones were evidence of this, but still it wasn't the truth. They were turning the other cheek. A woman beats me. Oh, if they were only to ask me, I would tell them everything . The only thing is, they never asked, so I never told. It was the dirty secret between the two of us. Anyone who would ever ask, she would stand beside me and put on her façade, her camouflage. How did she feel? I could never tell, but I do know I'm not a disappointment. I'm a terrible husband and an atrocious father. On a daily basis, I receive punishment for it.
I receive the punishment for it and can't help but forgive her afterwards she's hurled through her easily triggered anger spell, and realised what she's done. She would cry, make my shoulder damp with salty tears of regret and apologise profusely. It would be followed shorty with a trip to the hospital at two in the morning. A false, cheery conversation, albeit one sided, would take place, I tended to stare out the window, my eyes stinging with pain. The hospital made me breath a relaxed breath, someone could stop this only if they pressed me for answers. Though, they never did, it didn't stop me from hoping so.
Then she'd do it again, and again and again until one day, I would end up in the familiarity of the intensive care unit or worse, six foot under.
Monday 20 October 2014
Monday 13 October 2014
Style Model Analysis.
Charlie Brooker Analysis.
http://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2014/sep/22/apple-software-updates-iPhones-watch-ios-8
Charlie Brooker uses a range of techniques throughout his article about the new software updates Apple has installed on the new Apple products.
Brooker uses features of graphology including a heading, sub heading, photo and well structured paragraphs. He also uses a range of sentence types including complex, compound and simple sentences. There are less simple sentences,this is because Charlie Brooker's mood of writing is often cynical. So he uses long sentences to complain about his chosen subject. An example of this is : "Then theylUnvhed the horrible looking Apple watch, which does everything an iPhone can do, but more expensively and pointlessly, and on a slightly different part of your body".
He uses various techniques like repetition, informality and hyperbole to make the tone of his text conversational and relatable for the reader. Repetition is used to almost make fun of the Apple products "unhealthy devoted Apple fanatic could bear to wear an Apple watch" , this is sarcasm and is used to make fun of anybody who would wear the products. Charlie Brooker uses words like "damn" to get his point across, it makes it more interesting for the reader to read and is informal. Brooker creates comedy in his article by using a hyperbole "is the size of the Isle of Man" she talking about the new iPhones.
I am taking ideas from this text for my course work because I like the idea of writing about something current and technological rebut exploring the way it can affect our generation. I'm also taking ideas from Charlie Brooker because I like the way he writes. He's very cynical about everything, but this adds humor and takes it from a not so funny article to an article with character and humor, it's effective and makes a boring subject readable.
Django Unchained Review.
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/culture/film/filmreviews/9805963/Django-Unchained-review.html
The author of the Django Unchained review includes a range of techniques throughout the review published on the Telegraph.
Firstly, the author uses subject specific lexis like "Golden Globe Winning, Oscar and BAFTA nominated" the author uses this because it is specific to the text, the audience know (if they're film fans - which they most probably are) what he's talking about and also it is appropriate to use in the text.
The author uses references to the audience by mentioning other film titles to address the audience this film is targeted at "The Great Silence (1968) and A Fistful of Dollars (1964)" , this backs up the style the author has written in. It's quite sophisticated and fits in with the film, audience and the Telegraph - who he's writing for. The type of audience is hinted at again when the author includes hints at historical references like "Ku Klux Klamsmen" and "Second World War" suggesting the readers would need knowledge of these to be able to watch the film and read the review.
I am getting ideas from this style model because I have an interest in film and film reviews. I like the fact this one is written sophisticatedly and has other historical references.
http://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2014/sep/22/apple-software-updates-iPhones-watch-ios-8
Charlie Brooker uses a range of techniques throughout his article about the new software updates Apple has installed on the new Apple products.
Brooker uses features of graphology including a heading, sub heading, photo and well structured paragraphs. He also uses a range of sentence types including complex, compound and simple sentences. There are less simple sentences,this is because Charlie Brooker's mood of writing is often cynical. So he uses long sentences to complain about his chosen subject. An example of this is : "Then theylUnvhed the horrible looking Apple watch, which does everything an iPhone can do, but more expensively and pointlessly, and on a slightly different part of your body".
He uses various techniques like repetition, informality and hyperbole to make the tone of his text conversational and relatable for the reader. Repetition is used to almost make fun of the Apple products "unhealthy devoted Apple fanatic could bear to wear an Apple watch" , this is sarcasm and is used to make fun of anybody who would wear the products. Charlie Brooker uses words like "damn" to get his point across, it makes it more interesting for the reader to read and is informal. Brooker creates comedy in his article by using a hyperbole "is the size of the Isle of Man" she talking about the new iPhones.
I am taking ideas from this text for my course work because I like the idea of writing about something current and technological rebut exploring the way it can affect our generation. I'm also taking ideas from Charlie Brooker because I like the way he writes. He's very cynical about everything, but this adds humor and takes it from a not so funny article to an article with character and humor, it's effective and makes a boring subject readable.
Django Unchained Review.
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/culture/film/filmreviews/9805963/Django-Unchained-review.html
The author of the Django Unchained review includes a range of techniques throughout the review published on the Telegraph.
Firstly, the author uses subject specific lexis like "Golden Globe Winning, Oscar and BAFTA nominated" the author uses this because it is specific to the text, the audience know (if they're film fans - which they most probably are) what he's talking about and also it is appropriate to use in the text.
The author uses references to the audience by mentioning other film titles to address the audience this film is targeted at "The Great Silence (1968) and A Fistful of Dollars (1964)" , this backs up the style the author has written in. It's quite sophisticated and fits in with the film, audience and the Telegraph - who he's writing for. The type of audience is hinted at again when the author includes hints at historical references like "Ku Klux Klamsmen" and "Second World War" suggesting the readers would need knowledge of these to be able to watch the film and read the review.
I am getting ideas from this style model because I have an interest in film and film reviews. I like the fact this one is written sophisticatedly and has other historical references.
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